Med Man Says Kem Cho?

if u ever felt that need to know if u had any personality issues, here is the test for you. my results are below. (can someone tell me how to tag people?)
take the test here:

http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv

more info: http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/index.html

my results:
Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: Low
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Low
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: Low
Narcissistic: Low
Avoidant: Low
Dependent: Low
Obsessive-Compulsive: Low

You know when i started ob/gyn i wasn’t sure if I would enjoy my 6 weeks tryst with it. But, i have to say i come out of it with even more appreciation for what women go through to have a baby. Honestly, if I was a woman I would never ever get pregnant. The pain of labor blew my mind. And, unbelievably there are women who deliver without taking epidurals( epidurals are given for pain management in labor). Amazing! I salute you. I also have to say thank the good lord for the patients. Those nights when I didn’t get any sleep were worth it because of them. Those women went through what they went through, but they were also kind enough to let me learn medicine from it. One of the reasons ob/gyn is so tough apart from the shelf exam and the research paper is the 24 hours and overnight call schedule. And, imagine this from a guy’s perspective. Most of the days and nights there are no physicians on the floor. All the nurses are women and obviously, the patients are women. Most of the call schedules I was the only guy on the floor. I think it is something like 80% of the physicians in ob/gyn are women. So only women plus night calls was a little too much to handle. One more reason why thank god for those patients who I got to work with. They made going through those long hours possible. I also would be remiss if I didnt say that despite all the blood and gore there is nothing like hearing a newborn cry for the first time. It makes all those ridiculous hours absolutely worth it. If you ask me watching a birth is one of the most beautiful processes you can witness. Its amazing to think that small baby actually forms inside something as small as uterus and despite the fact that a million things can go wrong in the embryogenic stages most of the times nothing does. So, there you go I have a lot more respect for ob/gyn than I ever did before. Now, I move on to psychiatry. I was a little apprehensive for the first couple of days. The idea of working with ‘crazy’ people wasnt exactly appealing. And, I have done something along the lines of emergency psych before and hearing those heart wrenching stories from the patients had burned me out. But, back then I was a pre-med student which is a far outcry from a third year medical student. This time around, may be because I am a third year medical student or may be some other reason, behind all those delusions and hallucinations I can actually see human beings. And, just like you and me they ask for help and they want to get better. Just like you and me those ‘crazy’ people have actual parents and family. I saw a patient who had a history of multiple attempts of suicide and current suicidal ideations. He was planning to jump of a bridge or throw himself in front of a bus. He also had a history of substance abuse: cocaine, marijuana among others and, of hallucinations and delusions. When i went to talk to him, he did not want to talk. Well, guess what once i started talking he ended up talking to me for more than an hour. Wonderfully enough, he ended up talking about his son, job and relationships. So from outside, somebody might have considered him ‘crazy’. But look at the problems he has. Those are common to all of us-human beings. It reminds me of the old adage: Dont judge a book by its cover. I have only been in psychiatry for a few days. However, this much I have understood from it: what do you do when this strange process called human mind takes a leap to the south and there is nothing we can do about it? If that happened to us, won’t we wish there was someone to help us and hopefully, that someone didnt call us crazy.

so its been couple weeks in ob/gyn so far. and i guess so far so good. although the first week was very boring owing to the fact that it was all lectures, which is what we had been doing for the past two years. we all came into 3rd year expecting clinical work and learning how to put the knowledge we have gained in the first two years into practical knowledge. and so it was a little bit of struggle getting through it. but i don’t wasn’t to lose myself whining about something that probably in the long run doesn’t even matter. small potatoes i guess. but the last week has been fun. got to see a lot of cool stuff: a bunch of cesarean sections, a couple vaginal delivery, laparoscopy surgery for ovarian cysts and infertility, just to name a few things. also have to say it has been a humbling experience too. i get too see 16, 17, 18 year old girls with 3-4 kids. in most cases each one from different father. every-time i see them it makes me wonder do these people understand what they are doing. most of them dont have a steady boyfriend, not much of family support and no decent job which translates into not having enough money to support their kids. amazingly they dont seem to bothered by the fact that they are on their third or fourth pregnancy despite their circumstances. the other day i saw a girl who came into the clinic with belly ache because her mother(not the biological) had kicked her in the stomach while she was pregnant. the worst part of it was she lost her child the same day owing to reasons other than being kicked in the stomach. things like these make your head spin. but, i guess thats a part of humanity and medicine. a lot of us get into medicine to make a difference through the means it provides us. lets hope now that we might actually have a chance, we actually are able to. and thats ob/gyn so far. bye for now.

i am going to keep this short as i am in hospital on 15 min break. but let me provide some quick updates on me. i have just started my third year with 1st rotation in ob/gyn. by the way did someone say third year is easy? i am waiting. but i will stop whining. if other people have been able to get thru it, i should be able to too. Right? i had to move recently from syracuse, ny to johnson city, ny as the the campus i selected for third year before i got into med school is in binghamton, ny (johnson city is outside binghamton). so far so good. have been here only for abt a week. it will take some time to get used to the grind. new place, new academic year and 1st rotation. nervous and excited. i am out for now. more later.